Monday 12:29, 9/16/2013

Are my memories really lying? And how can they even lie to me? Shouldn't it be "You are lying to yourself through your memories"? Either way, for some reason it makes sense that someone would say this, like when something happens, (either good or bad) and years later you still remember it, but you may remember it as it was or worse or better. 

And I don't know if that would be considered "lying" but I bet it feels like it. But my theory isn't really proved, although it happens to me (and if it happens to me, I automatically know it happens to the rest of the world too) that now I try to remember things from waay back when, and I remember them "differently". 

Let's say, I remember something that back then it made me feel confused, and now, years later, I remember that time, and I remember it as a sad moment. 

How do I remember it as a sad moment when in reality what I was feeling was confusion? 
I think that happens because I now see the situation from an outsider, since it isn't happening to me anymore but it happened to "someone else" since it is a memory. 
But now I think that this is like dreams, like some people dream in color and some people dream in black and white. Maybe some people "see" their memories as a movie (like an outsider, you even see yourself) and I bet there's people that re-live their memories as part of their own present.
 

So I guess it does feel like your own memories are changing the story, but that only makes me feel like a moron. (remembering the "confusing" situation) I kind of understand better now that we (humans) are so sensitive to outside stimulus, to the people who surround us, so the weather, to the many things and ideas that go through, etc. 

All those things didn't let me see the situation clearly and that is why I felt confused and probably was confused, too. And now, that it's been a long time, and I am not in that situation anymore, and I have learned and gone through other many situations (either related or not to this first episode) I am more open minded and able to remember and analyze my own memories, re-living my memories and seeing them like in a movie. 
Like if my own mind wanted to make sure we made this the most analytical way possible...

To be Continued...